My Comfort Zone

Tourniquet

2011-03-01T13:34:00.002+08:00

i was really reluctant to meet the Lifegroup when mico first mentioned them to me. But I never closed myself to them.. its just that im not investing that much of an effort.... well thats before.. :)

We met Vic, Sein, Mimi and Bert initially and we had lunch at the harbourfront food court. Its a typical meet up.. hi and hello's, what do you do and whats your number things... (which im not really a fan of honestly... its just so fake to me.. im so bad..) well we didnt discuss that time we just had a get to know conversations and Vic gave us an overview with what they are doing with the Lifegroup. Then the lunch finished and we parted ways....

Then the next few days, sein txt us about a surprise birthday party for vic... Its a nice timing for us since we get to meet the rest of the guys...

We arrived at the venue a little bit late some of them are already sitting in the table... But one thing ive noticed is that they are so warm and welcoming, i never really felt that we 'just met'. After the awkward stage (at least for me) of introducing our selves and what do you do introductions, its just simultaneous...

The girl that i really first notice is Grace.. which is like the 'noisiest' of them.. hehe.. i mean she is the one who really loves to talk and really asking sincere questions to get to know you.. the rest of the guys im still awkward but as the time goes by also proved to be as warm and sincere as grace... maybe ill have a separate post to honor them.

Well its a good night and also a good initial bonding for us.. we get to hear testimonials and to honor Vic as early as a few days that we have met. And by the way they treated us that night! How generous of them!

I though lifegroup is like a hardcore bible study thingy that i remembered going into when i was young... boy i was wrong! well... its still bible study but its not as boring as i have remembered. We get to share, crack jokes, relay the message to everyday life… i just want to quote one from jeff he said something like "we can always alot a time taking a bath every day, so why cant we a lot a time to read the bible everyday?" Isnt that so practical? isnt that creative? Then i just found myself willingly aloting my whole sunday for service and lifegroup!

Here are some of the pics that we have so far, we get to surf, eat to diff restaurants and the most memorable of all is celebrating new years eve with them. yohoo!! Now that we are away from our family in this special occasion it can be pretty lonesome but this one is different. Its all happy faces, laughing voices and cheerful feeling! Enjoy the pics!

Christmas Reach Out Program

Grace's Suprise Birthday

Music Ministry Christmas Carol in Orchard

Videoke night after the 'as such time like this' with Nesa

Surfing time with Dean and Ryzl

New Year's Eve

note: may need to put some more pic in the coming days

Fast Forward

2011-02-23T10:00:00.000+08:00

Now everything had settled in here in Singapore.

We've got a place to stay.

Got a new iPhone.

Enjoyed our first salary.

Paid our debts.

Nice company.

Enjoyed our training.

Now the time line is a couple of months taking calls:

Everyday I drag myself going to work. Always thinking of saying my opening spiel 20++ times today and sometimes i cant even get my mouth to talk! I hate the thought that Im already a server support in KL and now I am back in taking calls. I hate this job!

Now I'm re evaluating my decisions.

During these days I ask God, God do you really want me here? Is this really what You want us to do? Is it really your will that everything went fine during my recruitment here? OR is it just me? Is it just me that pushed everything and its not really Your will for me to be here? I realized that big salary didn't really matter if you don't like what you are doing. Sometimes money isn't always the answer.

Mike and me had been going to ENCS service every sunday a few weeks after we got here. Sometimes the service encourages us but most of the time, we still feels empty. Its like im feeling obligated to wake up in a sunday morning to go to church. I even argue saying that "its my restday right? why do i have to set my alarm?" I know its not good but its how it is during that time.

Then, we decided to sign up for small group. Well, its always not that easy you know... mike has always asked me to join a small group since we are in the Philippines and I just "Yeah sure" without my heart on it. In Malaysia he again opened it up to me and i said "Yeah sure why not" but no effort at all.. Then here in SIngapore, I also said yes with the same feeling "just to say yes to it and lets see what happen" well i did try to look for one though checked the location of the groupd leaders, if its mixed or for men only or for women only... then i cant find what will "fit me and my schedule".

One day, mike told me, "they replied to my email... were gonna meet the small group leader later". �nd my respond is just "okay" then after service im not sure why im so anxious.. and silent.. also im a bit un easy.... it may be because i dont know what to expect... im shy to meet new people... or any other things that could be..

Then there you go, i was like "go mico initiate everything, its your idea". then everything went fine. They are filipinos as well, we met Vic, the group leader and the members sein, mimi, and bert... they are great, accommodating, so generous and very warm..

Its still unclear for me what will happen next by then. But one thing im sure of... god really is speaking many times and in many ways! (heb 1:1)

2011-02-22T17:20:00.000+08:00

Here I am trying to write again.. Well, its been an exciting year for my 2010 and a great beginning for my 2011!

I know that God has something for us here in Singapore when he allowed the schedule of our First day in Mansanas be adjusted to meet the required 30 days notice period from our previous company.

I guess this post will be more understood if i put some prelude to it... So here goes...

May2010

I was sleeping in a monday afternoon (if i remember the day right) when my phone rang. It was mico, he was telling me that Mansanas has called and conducted an interview. I was like Huwaat? with my eyes still half closed... then he told me to prepare because i will be next for the interview. Then suddenly all the sleepiness that i feel vanished, grabbed my laptop and browsed through their website. Then poom! the phone rang and the interview started...

It was a whirlwind experience after that... But i can really say that God is preparing us for something big in the coming days... The new company is really pushing us to finish our requirements in 2 weeks... then here comes the old company asking us to buy out our immediate resignation then at the end when we already have found enough fund for it, they took the condition back asking us we need to serve 30 days notice period... Everything is just not going as they should be and the two companies just have a very conflicting demands.Then we prayed to God, since we really would like to transfer here in singapore, and to our boldness, we didn't even asked for his plan, but we already claimed that this new opportunity is for us. The next day, all the point of contact cannot be contacted if we needed to ask something and all of our request was denied. We are already anxious and shaken but still we say to ourselves "God we claim this, this is for us!" Then we are reaching the end of our threads, options are running out and desperately came to this plan to come back and forth from malaysia to singapore in case "worse comes to worst". But by the grace of God we received this (excerpt) email 5 days before our start date:

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May 26, 2010

Hi Lou Rain,

Revised Start date

Please be informed that your start date with us has been revised to 2 June 2010 (Wed) instead of 31 May 2010 (Mon).

Welcome onboard!

Congratulations on joining the Family!

For those who are able to start work with us on 2 June, please arrive at the Reception on Wednesday (2 June 2010) at 8.45am to look for me to begin the on-boarding process.

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It was really a humbling beginning for us and I would say this is the first step for us towards getting to know God more. I learned to pray more and take step forward in faith...

what you gonna do if you got no food?

2011-01-19T10:22:00.000+08:00

its been silent for a while here... ill be writing again soon.. life is good. :)

2010-03-23T19:37:00.001+08:00

house buying

2009-02-25T16:38:00.000+08:00

we are considering to buy a house in mabalacat pampanga...

now, this is the case... its a first time for me n mike to invest like this big... maybe you can give me some insights, advice, or tips in dealing with this kind of investment.. im gathering as much information as I can before we actually pay anything,,,

i posted the picture of the gate.. maybe if ur familiar.. tell me something about it negative positive... anything... it will be apreciated.

i will be waiting for your response.. ;)

rain

2009-02-13T08:48:00.000+08:00

"Rain"

Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,

I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Is it you I want,
Or just the notion
Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around

Safe to say from here,
You're getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

To lie here under you,
Is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that i could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Global Catalogue

2009-01-15T12:46:00.000+08:00

Jan 14, 2009

[10.00am] Im nervous because i have an interview today. our company decided to transfer us to KL to support servers. Im completely clueless with this subject tho i really want this job for a long time! Mike and me reviewed till about 2am today just to make sure we understand at least the basic concept of what we are going to support. this is not usual cuz most of the time we make sure to get 8hours of sleep everyday specially if its a weekday.

[11.00am] Im scheduled for 11.30am interview. mike has been called already and he said that the questions were easy. we went out for a smoke and when we are about to go back inside we saw lek and kitel approaching us. Lek said that our interview will be rescheduled tomorrow. to my nervousness... it will extend till tomorrow! gosh!

[11.40am] my phone rang!!!! its Prashna and she's conducting an interview (WTF?!) well, i dont have any choice but to proceed.. and fortunately its not that hard at all and she is not indimidating in the phone so i overcome my nervousness. The interview went well and its almost the same questions as mico told us earlier. i did not answer one out of 6 questions. not bad...

[3.00pm] our OM, Vaidy approched us (mico and i) congratuating us because we passed the interview! awesome!!! its kool.. we'r going to KL!!

[on the side note] the rest of the guys are still waiting for their turn tomorrow. what happened there is that the interviewer of kitel, lisa and prashant is different from ours. he is on emergency leave thats why they didnt have the interview today...

[5.30pm] Aileen called mico and asked for our birthdate. andsha she said that she will send an email for us about further instruction about KL.

[6.15pm] we just got home and we checked our email and we got nothing.. hayz... they are always like that... always delayed... anyways... Vaidy already told us that we are going so nothing to worry.. well just wait for her email to come..

[the rest of the night] we went to josephine's place to watch american idol. we ate twister fries and coke and as usual elimination round for american idol is hilarious! hehe.. we ate sinigang for dinner and watch 1 episode of evangelion and went to sleep.

i say: Thank you Lord for a new oppurtunity you have given us. Thank you also for providing that oppurtunity for both me and mico. you are really good God. We praise you.

98% to go...

2009-01-15T07:05:00.000+08:00

leaving paradise.

2009-01-15T06:26:00.002+08:00

98% to go...

2009-01-15T06:17:00.000+08:00

journey to paradise day3

2009-01-08T16:12:00.000+08:00

3rd day na... i still dont feel well after ng mahaba habang lakaran kahapon.. pero keri lang dami pa rin dapat puntahan today...

first stop: Langkawi cable car

Waaaaw!!! ang taas naman nung cable car. mga tanghali kami nakarating dun kaya tirik na tirik pa ang araw. dun na rin kami nag brunch. gusto ko pa rin matikman ulit un kape na katulad kahapon kaya kape ulit inorder ko kasama ng food. but sad to say matabang un kape nila, amf! chinese fried rice sakin si mico naman ay chiken and rice lang. nag libot libot kami muna bago nag sakay dun sa cable car. nakoo!!! mga unggoy nanaman! hehe dami naman nila. punta kami dun sa may pen na maraming rabbit.. ang kukuyt nila!! hehe lambot ng buhok kaso mabantot! hmf! hehe

ayun kahit tirk ang araw pichure pichure kami dun sa may bridge. ay! sobra na na sa tan, tama na!! hekhek.

nakapunta na sila lisa dito eh kaya nd na sila nag cable car. kami nilang daw at sila maglilibot sa mga store dito.

25rm ang bayad at and pila, parang rio grande sa enchanted kingdom. hehe ok lang maganda naman ang view. daming magagandang babae, at meron ilang, ahem! goodlooking guys sa paligid. nakakatawa pa, meron dun kamukha ni pining! alam ko ilan lang kau nakaka kilala sa kanya.. pero tlga pramis tlgang kamukha nya. matanggad lang ng konti at sempre kalbo din. hehehe.. kasunod kami sa pila ng isang german family yta un. Lima sila lahat mag kakapatid at lahat sila infairness and ganda!! hehe. after ng almost one hour na pag hihintay eto na!!! excited na ako sumakay sa cable car!

nggiiiii!!! baket ganito ang taas na? takot na ako... hehe sobrang taas nakakalula din pla dun. tho mukhang safe naman tlgang bumabaligtad lang un sikmura ako. wala nga akong pichure na maayos dito eh. hehe

hayz. first stop. ang lamig! parang baguio. tas mahangin.. konting picure taking at next stop na ulit. mataas pa rin un babaybayin namin,

takot ulit ako..kasi mas mataas na ito at may dinadaanan pang pang lubak sa taas. anu ba un! sa wakas nasa tuktok na kami ng bundok. mas malamig dito at mas mahangin. akyat pa ulit. nako.. may bridge dun at mukhang bababa pa kami. tsk tsk. nd pa nga naka recover un paa ko sa ginawa namin kahapon. hayz.

ayun pichure muna sa tass. ang ganda ng view mga bundok, kita un tabing dagat at ocean, kita mo rin un may talon. ok na kami sa taas at eto na ang iniiwasan ko. bababa kami dun sa bridge. hayz, kaya kahit masakit na paa ko go pa rin! kanina nung nasa peak kami, nasa 700m above sea level kami. sa bridge siguro nasa 500m nalang. so na imagine nyo kung ganun kataas un pag aakyat na kami.

nakasalubong pla namin sa pining sa bridge. hehe, ang bilis nya mag stroll eh. nauna pa sya sa amin samantalang sa pila layo ng distansya nya. hekhek

ayun. parehas lang un view dito sa bridge mejo mas may insight ka lang sa gubat. mejo pagod na tlga ako (cnxa na sa reklamo kasi pagod na tlga ako nun) umupo muna ako nag tingin ng bujet namin. nag txt sila lek at sabi nila pupunta daw sila sa 7 wells.

sabi namin na wait na nila kami dun sa bababa na kami. (salamat!)

pag baba namin, na realize na mico na wala syang pichure sa cable car. kasi sya ng camera man at masyado naman akong takot para maalala ko sya pichuran. sayang!

taxi kami papunta sa 7 wells. ang bilis, lapit lang pala eh. nakupo! pataas nanaman un daanan! ayoko na!!! waah!!!! balak ko na tlga mag paiwan sa baba kasi maliwanang na bundok nanaman un pinuntahan namin na kailangan akyatin.

pero sayang naman un pinunta namin dun. buti nalang ang mahaba pasensya sa akin nila at napilit nila ako umakyat ulit.

pag dating dun, falls pala un na may ilog. un ung falls na kita namin mula dun sa cable car. naligo si gracey at pichure pichure ulit. may nakilala kami mga pinoy din. nag wowork sila sa mga yatch at hotel. sosyal! hehe. tapos nun uwian na. e wala palang taxi dun pauwi kasi mejo late na kami bumaba. naglakad tuloy kami. (kelan kaya matatapos itong lakaran na ito?!) ganda ng road walang sasakyan at un pichure nanaman!!! hehehe

hangang sa nakarating na ulit kami sa cable car at dun kami sumakay ng taxi pauwi.

pag dating sa cottage nag yaya si mico mag swimming sa beach. mejo palubog pa lang un araw nun kaya pwede pa... haaay! sarap maligo parang nawala un pagod ko.

tapos namin mag pahinga ng konti at mag banlaw nag yaya na sila kumain. mejo nwawalan na kami ng choice kasi puro sea food nalang. sabi nila mag italian resto daw.

tingin kami menu at pizza at pasta lang andun so sabi ko kay mico sa iba nalang kami kumain, at nauwi ulit kami sa seafood. grabe! tagal namin nag lakad (ulit) muntik na kami makarating dun sa kinainan namin nung bisperas. may nakita kami pero mukhang di masrap at bumalik ulit kami dun sa malapit nalang sa cottage.

sa sobrang pagod, dami namin nakain. isda, pusit at lala (tulya) na inihaw at 6 na rice! haha kala mo last supper lang.. pag ka uwi, kwentuhan lang tas tulog na ulit.

nahuli nyo na ba kung sinu un malakas mag hilik kagabi? eh sinu un nag sasagutan? parang nag duduet lang.. hehehe

journey to paradise, day 2

2009-01-08T12:23:00.000+08:00

January 1, 2009

Pagkagising, ligi na agad at meron kaming island hopping ngaun! mejo na late na kami nagising kaya madali sa pag ligo at humabol pa ng almusal.

Habang nag aalmusal, feel na feel ko pa naman un kape nila.. eh bigla tumawag sila lisa at un sundo daw namin eh nandyan na. sayang naman.. tho nainum ko un kape pero parang nd ko ko sya na enjoy..

Anywayz. un so anjan na un van.. at dinala nya kami dun sa lugar kung saan un mga bangka ay naka park.

sakay na!! well, nung lumusong ako sa dagat para sumakay sa bangka, mejo weird un feeling kasi halos puro grasa na yta un tubig dun sa pangpang.. madulas.. eww!! (conio! hehe)

OK la! andar na un bangka at exciting ito! malinaw din un tubig nung mejo naka layo na kami, mejo lakas un alon kaya nd kami msyado nakapag pichure pichure. meron kaming hinintuan na parang sabi nila something na "pregnant lady mountain" daw un pangalan.. hehe (nd ko na matandaan un excat name) saglit lang kami dun kaya walang pichure.. naka supot kasi un camera ni mico at di pwede ma basa. may isang kakatwang quote ba "sorry i dont listen". Si ate, puti sya, maganda, may dating kasama nya un jowa nya na mukhang bading yta... nung nag papaliwanag si kuya kung anung meron dun sa pregnant lady chorva, pinaulit nya kasi daw "i dont listen" hekhek (wala lang) hihihih

un lang... ang ganda dun sa dagat.. kasi napaplibutan sya ng mga bundok.. para bang the beach ni leonardo dicaprio. tpos unang destination namin un isang isla nakalimutan ko na ulit un name eh.. pero mukhang exciting din dito.

mataas un lugar kaya mejo treking kunyari ang trip namin. sa bungad pa lang kay daming unggoy na nagkalat! sabi nila wag ka daw mag bibibitbit ng plastic bag dito kungdi haharasin ka ng mga unggoy na dun. hala! and taas nung lugar, akyat dito, mejo bababa, tas aakyat nanaman.. tapos un huli lake na.

dun sa may lake andun daw un mga isda na nag lilinis ng paa. pero nung dumating kami, busog yta sila at natutulog kasi nd ko sila makita hehehe... tapos banda duon pwede ka mag sun bathing at maglublob na rin sa tubig kung gusto mo. kaso malalim! kaya wak nalang no! hehe. un nag picture taking ulit at ang malas na si gracey nalaglag un shades nya dun sa m ay lake. pag yuko nya para silipin un tubig nauna pa sa knya mag dive. eh malalim un at walang marunong lumangoy sa amin.. kaya un.. goodbye shades.

pagbalik, nako, akyat baba nanaman grabe na ito! mukhang nabawasn na un timbang ka kaka treking na ito.. hekhek. tapos punta kami dun sa spot kung saan maraming eagle at pinapakain nila ng mga laman ng manok. then punta kami dun sa final na isla kung saan kami nag swimming. na excite mag swimming eh, isang oras lang kami dun kya wala munang pichure. dive na kung dive!! hehehehe.. meron din nag papaparasailing at banana boat kaso mahal! sa batu feringghi nalang kami mag gaganun..

pag balik namin dun sa parking shore nung mga bangka, aba may pinagkaka guluhan mga tao! anu kya un? ayy!! uso din pala dito yan. si kuya kanina nag pipichure pala sa amin nung dumating kami at nilagay nya ang pichure sa may plato na may nakalagay "langkawi island hopping" hehe ang saya! binili namin sa halagang 10rm isa. ang yaman ni kuya! hehe

pagdating sa cottage naligo na si gracey at nag iintay kami. habang nag iintay pictorial kami ni mico sa may hallway.. "babae sa koridor" and tema.

tapos maligo nag lunch sa oras na 3.00p. seafood ulit, masarap naman. inihaw na pusit sa akin, inihaw na pagi kay mico kila lisa parang sweet n sour na fish. chibig na ito!! hehehe

tapos nun punta kami ng "underwater world" daming isda at mga animals. waaaaw!!! meron flamingo! ngaun lang ako naka kita ng ganito sa totoong buhay. hekhek. dami pang ibat' ibang klaseng mga isda at hayop. mula sa pinaka maliit hanggan pinaka malaki. may 3D theater pa, nako sumakit lang ulo ko sa knya! heheh.. ok pa sana.. kaso siguro sa sobrang pagod ko dun sa islang hopping unti unti na akong nalolobat. tapos nun nako lalong lumalala un pakiramdam ko feel ko mag kakasakit na ako. hayz.

pagdating sa bahay wala na tlga nilalagnat na ako. nagising ako ng madaling araw kasi nd ako makahinga sa sipon. bingyan ako ni mico ng gamot at pinainum din ako ni gracey ng fern-c nya. sayang naman ang bakasyon kung magkakasakit lang diba..

at un hulihan ulit kung sinung nag hihilik!! kasi lahat kami pagod.. sinu kaya pinaka malakas?! hehehehe

journey to paradise, day 1

2009-01-08T11:10:00.000+08:00

Dec.31, 2008 6.30
our bags are packed and were ready to go! we got everything and we are ready for a new adventure of our lives... we will go to langkawi to spend the new year's eve and first days of january. this is the first day of our journey..

we called joe the big taxi to fetch ud from BJ court and within about 15mins hes there already and we going... after about 20 mins ride we reached jetti and we bought the ticket to the ferry.

while we are waiting we are just kidding around and there's a lot of differnt people there. there are caucasians, latin, indian, local malays, and even some that looks like a WWE wrestler (hulk hogan as what jay said) hehehe...

The ferry is just ok, its airconditioned but the seats are not so good. there's 5 of us and the seats in a row i just 4. But since im sexy (ahem!) we can still fit gracey in a our row so that no one is left alone in another row.

cannot really appreciate the ferry ride since that im still sleepy. Also, the wave is kind of disturbing to me. I admit, this is my first time to ride in a ferry! hmf! so i just plugged in my earphone and let mico choose the song in ipod.

i woke up a little later because mico is kinda "malikot" in his seat and i discovered that he is taking a picture of a cute boy sitting just in front of us. look at that face.. sana ganyan ka cute magiging anak ko!! hehe its just about 9.00am so i slept again.

the wave is really driving me crazy! nd naman ako byahilo pero nakakairita lang un alon nung dagat.. ewan ko ba.. hayz..

i cant sleep anymore and mico is still busy with his camera. so i asked him maybe we can watch from gracey's laptop. so we watched "bee movie". the noise comming from the ferry is so loud that i still have to press the earphone in my ears to here what im waching. its nice but its not that catchy. so.. the ferry stopped. i though its just a stop over or a break.. but lisa said that we are here in langkawi.

we arrived earlier that we thought.. they said that its a 5hr ride.. we made it within 2 hours. kool.

after that we bought our food at KFC and got a cab going to pantai cenang. And we arrived at Tanjung Malie at about 12pm just exact for the check out time of the people. we waited for sometime because the rooms are getting cleaned as of the moment.

The cottage is ok, we got 2 queen sized bed and most of all, its got AC. hehehe.. (adik as aircon!) we ate or lunch and we rested for some time. We went out to check out the nearby beach in our cottage.

The sand is perfect. its like golden white flour. hehe...

Of course, kodakan na ito! hehe lakad kami dun sa mejo walang masyadong tao at dun nag pichure pichure. hehe . since na palubog na rin un araw nun eh na catch pa namin un sunset na knina pa inaabangan ni mico. tapos nung nag lakad pa ulit kami papunta dun sa kabilang beach, kasi sabi nila lek eh mas maganda daw dun.. dumaan ng duty free bili ng alak at chocolate. mas mura nga dito un alak at sigarilyo.. hehe tapos libot kami sa maliliit na tyange dun. hanap sila ng swimsuit at kung anu ano pang mga kikay things. ako naman nag hanap nung tights ko para dun sa isang dress na binili ko kagabi. un nakahanap naman kami.

mga bandang 8.00p pumunta kami duns a seafood resto na kinainan nila ni jay nung huli silang nag punta dito. gutom na ako! layo ng nilakad namin eh. Nag order kami ng hipon, pusit, gulay saka dimsum. tagal dumating ng order kala ko dun na kami mag babagong taon eh.. heheh pero sulit naman! sarap ng food namin.. hehehe.

after we ate we went back to the cottage to freshen up at pumunta na kami s beach. dala namin un alak na nabili namin sa duty free knina. sa tagal namin maligo lahat muntik na kami hindi umabot ng 12am dun.. mga 11.50p siguro kami nakarating.. dun plang kami sa may bungad eh nag ha-happy new yearan na silang lahat eh.. tapos nag fireworks ng konti.. as in konti lang wala pa yta 5 mins un fireworks display nila.. meron lang isang magandang pa epek sila dun.. un mga parang maliliit na chinese lantern na lumulipad lipad dun sa kadiliman ng dagat.. so pag sa malayo para silang mga stars na mababa lang.. astig!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

un tapos hanap kami magandang spot at dun kami nag latag at uminom. na convince namin ni mico na uminom sila lek, gracey at jay... bad influence ba? hehehe minsan lang naman.. saka celebrate lang ng new year eh. inum kami ng absolut vodka manadarin saka beer. as much as i want na malasin ako eh.. bigo nananman!!! waah! tapos ng 3 shot na sunod sunod.. nag papass na sila.. amp! nu ba yan.. hehe kami nalang ni mico nag iinum.

ok lang din.. after mga ilang oras bumalik na kami sa cottage at nag kwentuhan tas tulog na! hulihan nalang kung sinung nag hihilik!!! hahaha!

new year's celebration teaser....

2009-01-07T12:34:00.000+08:00

i am trying to make the pictures bandwith friendly para mas madali rin mag load.. its just taking its own time sa tagal at dami!!! hayz.. well comming soon ang pics namin from langkawi and i hope you'll enjoy! tata!

null and void

2008-12-23T05:33:00.000+08:00

what lies beneath this uncertainty and hollowness of my toil...

gusto ko lng naman ang totoo, ung tipong ang sagot ay di rin isang tanong...

2008-12-18T09:38:00.000+08:00

Oo nga pala,
Hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito lang ako
Nangangarap na mapa-sayo

Hindi sinasadya
Na hanapin pa ang lugar ko
Asan nga ba ako?
Andiyan pa ba sa iyo?

Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba 'ko sa'yo?
Aasa ba ko sayo?

Nasusuka ako,
Kinakain na ang loob
Masakit na mga tuhod,
Kailangan bang lumuhod?

Gusto ko lang naman,
Yung totoo
Yung tipong ang sagot,
Ay 'di rin isang tanong

Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo?
Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo?
Aasa ba ko sayo?

Dahil 'di na makatulog (makatulog)
Dahil 'di na makakain (makakain)
Dahil 'di na makatawa (makatawa)
Dahil 'di na

Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito na lang ako

Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo... Nahihilo...
Nalilito...

count down...

2008-12-17T11:38:00.000+08:00

Bob Ong

2008-12-15T05:35:00.000+08:00

i saw the post of my cousing here about something in Bob Ong's writing... Ive been curious about his book... so maybe someone got a book that I can borrow? i would appreciate it.. hihihihi... (sana lang kung may mabibilhan dito diba?) hehehe

migration of data

2008-12-11T04:50:00.000+08:00

ive been waiting for this...

when i signed up here in multiply i thought i can migrate my blog from blogger to here... but unfortunately that time its not yet possible..

last night when mico is updating his blog and im watching him do it.. i noticed something.. OMG... migration from blogger is already available!!!! whoa! im overly excited! hehe

its past my bedtime already. i should be in bed at 9am cuz ill be at the opis earlier than usual, but i didnt mind extending my wake hours, waited for mico to finish his update and i did migrate my blogger entry here in multiply.

sorry for the flooding in your inboxes.. im just adding some finishing touch and good to go. i think this is another reason for me to continue blogging!

Arithmetic of the Devil

2008-12-11T03:13:00.000+08:00

What Makes 100%? What does it mean to give MORE than 100%? Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%? We have all been to those meetings where someone wants you to give over 100%. How about achieving 103%? What makes up 100% in life?

Here's a little mathematical formula that might help you answer these questions:

If:

A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z is represented as:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

Then:

H-A-R-D-W-O-R-K
8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%

and

K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E
11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%

But,

A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E
1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%

And,

B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T
2+21+12+12+19+8+9+20 = 103%

AND, look how far ass kissing will take you.

A-S-S-K-I-S-S-I-N-G
1+19+19+11+9+19+19+9+14+7 = 118%

So, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that While Hard work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will get you there, it's the BullshiT and Ass kissing that will put you over the top.

love of my life

2008-11-24T13:30:00.003+08:00

Love Of My Life Lyrics

Love of my life - you've hurt me
You've broken my heart and now you leave me
Love of my life can't you see
Bring it back, bring it back
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know -What it means to me
Love of my life - don't leave me
You've taken my love and now desert me
Love of my life can't you see
Bring it back, bring it back
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know -What it means to me
You will remember -When this is blown over
And everything's all by the way -When I grow older
I will be there at your side to remind you
How I still love you - I still love you
Back - hurry back
please bring it back home to me
Because you don't know
What it means to me
Love of my life
Love of my life ...Oooh, oooh...

break free

2008-11-24T11:51:00.009+08:00

this weekend, out of the blue, mico just wanted to hear the music of QUEEN. i dont know... when he got back from the market and finished preparing the items.. he went straight to our room and started downloading and googling queen's songs and about freddie mercury.

queen is one of my father's favorite band. I remeber back then that the sound of "radio gaga.. radio goo goo.." and under pressure will wake us up during week ends. i must say one of my favorite queen song is the bohemian rhapsody. that is before i found out that love of my life is queen's as well. I was amazed because this song sounded like a woman singing it. this is where my curiosity towards freddie mercury started.

just a few interesting things about freddie:
1. He was born Farrokh Bulsara.
2. Mercury, was of Indian Parsi descent and grew up in India
3. Mercury had a recorded range of three octaves (F2-F5).
4. Mercury played the piano in many of Queen's most popular songs.
5. Mercury had a long-term relationship with a girlfriend named Mary Austin (but)
6. Mercury referred to himself as "gay" in a 1974 interview with NME magazine (that lead to their separation)
7. Mercury and Austin nevertheless remained close friends through the years.
8. He wrote the song "love of my life to the later.
9. Mercury put out two solo albums Mr. Bad Guy (1985) and Barcelona (1988).
10. Mercury was diagnosed with AIDS in the spring of 1987. But he only admitted it in public in
23 November little over 24 hours after the statement, Mercury died on 24 November 1991
at the age of 45.

Well thats about it for freddie mercury... the "love of my life" still running on my mind.. just a wonderful and powerful song.. :)

Rip Off

2008-11-13T10:51:00.004+08:00

November 3, 2008 – 1:57 am

gadgetry: my bf got an DSLR camera last sat. its a sony alpha 200. pretty excited for this new toy for him cuz its been sometime that we are planning to buy this. We bought from a store in komtar for 1550rm. it includes the 18mm-70mm lens kit, 2GB compact flash memory card, a sony carry bag and a UV filter. This is a good deal for us since we saw it queensbay for 1650 and its just the body and the lens. well we’re pretty excited to shoot, we will go to a beach this weekend to take advantage of our new found hobby.

work life: i got in as the “dispatcher of the day” post of our L2. so there would be 3 of us that will have to rotate in a week to help screen and approve the dispatches of our team mates. I should be having this wed and thurs sched but im on leave by thurs and fri so ill be starting by next week tues and wed.

dexter: we watched two episode of our favorite serial killer… dexter. what can i say about those two episode… i starting to hate it. hmf! the story line is really changing drastically. i mean its not focused on dexter’s killing anymore. the excitement of the series is getting rip off. well, its just the 4th and 5th episode.. ill give it another shot… lets see what will happen.

lovelife: we’re on a leave this comming thurs and fri. the initial plan is we are going to singapore for a trip. but as we finished with our budjet we are sad that we only have 600rm left for us for the rest of the month. that is exclusive of our taxi, house and utility bills. Well maybe well be back to batu feringgi and we’ll try to go to monkey island or maybe do parasailing!!! still exciting for a consolation price, right?

CHAPTER 27

2008-11-13T10:37:00.003+08:00

October 31, 2008 – 9:38 am

Happened to drop by to my ex-boss’s blog and got inspired to get back into my blogging.

Ive been doing blog before but its just sometimes i get to the point that i get tired and im getting used with my writting style that im starting to hate it.

now ive got this new urge to try writting again. maybe there is hope for me and bring back the passion in writting.

reality check:

life in gen: pretty shallow. it feels like im just flying and going where the wind blows. a good thing here is that the wind seems to be blewing up a positive vibes and things are just okay. no complications, no hang ups, just plain boring.

love life: going strong. having plans. putting bricks on the wall of our dreams.

work life: also getting bored BUT if it will be given there is a big exposure for me here i’m just waiting for the decision from the management if it will be a go. of course im excited. no rise and that but there will be OT’s meaning… more money. this is another skillset that ill gain. maybe this is what ive been made to do.

dexter: well im excited to watch the episode 4 of season 8 of Dexter. I just feel like i have to put something that i need to follow for next few days or weeks.

Gadgetry: As of the moment.. ive got a compaq v3000 laptop, 60 GB 5th gen ipod, SonyEricsson W300i, creative muvo 512mb. some old, some new.. who cares? as long as i can use them no issue with me

so i think that will be it for now and im pretty excited on the things that will happen.

its been a while...

2008-11-12T20:55:00.002+08:00

whew!!! it been a while since i last updated this blog. and there's so much that happened since then...
i think since i lost my faith with my old company or lets say... my previous boss... i just lost interest in everything...
well.. im back now and i'll start a new chapter in my leisure pursuit... and i will call it.... CHAPTER 27.

liham

2008-01-07T01:00:00.001+08:00

Mahal naming anak,
Sa aking pagtanda, unawain mo sana akoat pagpasensiyahan.Kapag dala ng kalabuan ng mata aynakabasag ako ng pinggano nakatapon ng sabaw sa hapag kainan,huwag mo sana akong kagagalitan.Mara mdamin ang isang matanda.Nagse-se lf-pity ako sa tuwingsinisigawa n mo ako.
Kapag mahina na ang tenga ko at hindiko maintindihanang sinasabi mo, huwag mo naman sanaakong sabihanng "binge!" paki-ulit nalang angsinabi mo o pakisulatnalang.Pasensya ka na, anak. Matanda natalaga ako.
Kapag mahina na ang tuhod ko,pagtiyagaan mo sana akongtulungang tumayo, katulad ng pag-aalalay ko sa iyonoong nag-aaral ka pa lamang lumakad.
Pagpasensyahan mo sana ako kung akoman aynagiging makulit at paulit-ulit naparang sirang plaka.Basta pakinggan mo nalang ako.Huwag mo sana akong pagtatawanan opagsasawaang pakinggan.
Natatandaan mo anak noong bata ka pa?kapag gusto mo ng lobo, paulit-ulitmo 'yong sasabihin,maghapon kang mangungulit hangga'thindi mo nakukuha ang gusto mo.Pinagtyagaan ko ang kakulitan mo.
Pagpasensyahan mo na rin sana angaking amoy.Amoy matanda, amoy lupa.Huwag mo sana akong piliting maligo.Mahina na ang katawan ko.Madaling magkasakit kapag nalamigan,huwag mo sana akong pandirihan.
Natatandaan mo noong bata ka pa?pinatyagaan kitang habulin sa ilalimng kamakapag ayaw mong maligo.
Pagpasensyahan mo sana kung madalas,ako'y masungit, dala na marahil ito ngkatandaan.Pagtanda mo, maiintindihan mo rin.
Kapag may konti kang panahon,magkwentuhan naman tayo, kahit sandalilang.Inip na ako sa bahay, maghapong nag-iisa.Walang kausap.
Alam kong busy ka sa trabaho,subalit nais kong malaman mo na sabikna sabik na akong makakwentuhan ka,kahit alam kong hindi ka interesado samga kwento ko.
Natatandaan mo anak, noong bata ka pa?Pinagtyagaan kong pakinggan atintindihinang pautal-utal mong kwento tungkol saiyong teddy bear.
At kapag dumating ang sandali na ako'ymagkakasakitat maratay sa banig ng karamdaman,huwag mo sana akong pagsawaangalagaa n.
Pagpasensy ahan mo na sana kung akoman ay maihi o madumi sa higaan,pagtyagaan mo sana akong alagaan samgahuling sandali ng aking buhay.Tutal hindi na naman ako magtatagal.
Kapag dumating ang sandali ng akingpagpanaw,hawakan mo sana ang aking kamayat bigyan mo ako ng lakas ng loobna harapin ang kamatayan.
At huwag kang mag-alala,kapag kaharap ko na ang Diyos nalumikha,ibubulong ko sa kanya na pagpalain k

Close encounter with the infamous "Banded Sea Krait"

2008-01-03T00:55:00.000+08:00

Hikhiks!

This is a Banded Sea Krait. We saw this the morning when we woke up During me and my boyfriend camped overnight at the seaside. Did not realized at first that this is actually a krait. I thought just a bunch of trash at the shore but when i took a closer look, I did not waste any time and took pictures. Bad that the cam that I have is just from my old phone.. *sigh*

2007-11-23T22:41:00.000+08:00

Where are you when i needed you most?

2007-11-22T13:45:00.000+08:00

focus

2007-11-22T13:41:00.000+08:00

Take this away from me
Take away this poison
It’s making it hard to see
I’m slowly falling under
Focusing on
I’m focusing on my hands
Save me from my emotions
I have lost my hold on my mind
I can’t find what you see in me
I am not what you once
Bleeding from these wounds
I remember peace and
Wish that I was numb
No words left unspoken
Focusing onI’m focusing on my hands
Save me from my emotions
I have lost my hold on my mind
I can’t find what you see in me
I am not what you once
FocusingI’m focusing onFocusing
I’m focusing onMy hands
Save me from my emotions
Save me from my emotions
Save me from my emotions
Save me from my emotions
I have lost my hold on my mind
I can’t find what you see in me
I am not what you once loved

kamalayan

2007-11-09T01:03:00.000+08:00

sabi mo gusto mo ako makasama.
Tayong dalawa magkahwak kamay. Nakangiti, Masaya.
Ito na ang hinihintay natin. Aalis na tayo,
Ayaw ko na dito. Ayaw ko na sa magulo, mausok at mataong lugar na ito.
Ikaw lang ang gusto kong makasama. Ikaw lang ang kailangan ko.
wala nang pipigil sa atin.
Sa malayo kung saan magsisimula tayo.
Ikaw lang at ako.

may isang nag salita

2007-10-27T02:22:00.000+08:00

....Dinala mo ako sa isang mundong pinapangarap ko, isang mundong atin lang. Ah, ang sarap pakinggan: “tayong dalawa” at “atin lang.”

Ngayon ko lang susubukan gawin ito
Nahihiya, naiilang ako…
Pero wala naman sigurong mawawala
Kung maglalakas-loob at kikilalanin ka…

Ngayong nakilala ko ang isang tulad mo
Natutuwa, nagagalak ako…
Pero sana, ‘di masayang ang ating simula
Ayokong lahat ay mauwi sa wala…

Pero may mga taong walang ibang hilig kundi mangarap
Kaya may mga pangarap na nananatiling mga pangarap…

Ngayon, naiisip ko ang bagay na ito
Nakokonsensiya, nalulungkot ako…
Walang “atin lang” at “tayong dalawa”
Dahil tanging ako ang naging masaya…

-roni_bats-

inspirasyon

2007-10-25T03:21:00.000+08:00

Ayokong hanapin mo ako dahil sa hindi mo ako makita,
dahil sa hindi mo ako maramdaman.
Nitong nagdaang mga araw, nagbabago ako ng anyo.

Isa akong yelo, na nakakulong sa bakal na puno ng kalawang.

Hindi tumatakbo ang oras.

Paano ako makakawala nang hindi natutunaw?

Nang hindi nadudumhan?
Kung dumating ang oras na maghahanap ka,

puntahan mo ang nagliliparang alikabok.

Isa ako sa kanila.

At kung sakaling mapuwing ka,

isipin mong ako ang pumupuwing sa 'yo para di ka masaktan.

Gusto kong maramdaman mo ang aking presensya nang hindi ako nakikita.
Kung madaan ka sa mga halaman,

'wag kang kukuha ni isang dahon man lang,

baka ako ang iyong mapitas, malulungkot ako.
Pag ninais kong muling magbagong anyo, (ayoko pa)

'wag kang umasang makita ako, mag-iiba ako ng pormat disenyo.
Kung mapadaan ka sa umaagos na tubig,

damhin mo iyon ng iyong mga palad.

Wag mong punasan, isipin mo ako,

hayaan mong matuyo at saka ako maglalaho.
Isipin mo lang akong tumatawa, tulad ng lagi kong ginagawa.

Isipin mo lang akong tinotopak, at tawagin mo akong baliw,

hindi pa rin ako masasaktan, tulad ng dati.
Hindi mo man ako makita, hindi ako lalayo.

Magbago man ako ng anyo, ako pa rin ako.

'Wag mo na akong hanapin dahil hindi ako nagtatago,

pero hindi ako magpapakita.

Hayaan mong lumipas ang panahon...

hanggang sa naisin kong ilapit ang langit sa aking puso...

doon lang ako magiging malaya.

*hindi ako lumilimot, at hindi ako lilimot. gusto ko lang maglakbay ng walang anino...ng walang kasaysayan

-superhero-

Isla Bonito, Batangas

2007-09-18T17:16:00.001+08:00

Snorkling

Snorkling with the guys

Team pic

Wacky team pic

im hungry...

from the commode

2007-09-18T17:11:00.000+08:00

Outbound Autodialer.

2007-08-11T02:01:00.000+08:00

waw! i was selected among 400 tech here at the office to be one of the pilot team of Rex Outbound Autodialer. The question is, what lies beneath? i dont know...

give...

2007-03-19T14:51:00.000+08:00

I wait by the phone
I wait for the call that never comes
I play in your game
But the truth is it's driving me insane.

The moment I give
Is the moment you take
You're less than forgiven
The moment I wake
Is the moment you sleep
You're always receiving.

I'm taking my time
In time you'll get yours and I'll get mine
And you'll be surprised
On how things can get back at you sometimes,
Cuz I've played the fool
Now I'm breaking all your stupid rules
Cuz I've had enough of you
I'm leaving it all, I'm leaving you...

The moment I give
Is the moment you take
You're less than forgiven
The moment I wake
Is the moment you sleep
You're always receiving.

I wait for the call that never comes
Am I wasting my time
Cuz time takes its crazy toll.

will you ever learn?

2007-03-19T14:44:00.000+08:00

So what’s the point in all of this?
When you will never change
The days have past
The weather’s changed
Should I be sorry? Could I be sorry?
I did it all for you
Hoping you would see
Your eyes are dull, your hands are clenched
Are we ready?
But you think about yourself
Only but yourself
But what about…
Un-lonely nights, romantic moments
The love
What about them
Throw it all away
You know me well
You know it’s wrong
Then what is it you feel?
You hide behind those perfect smiles
It won’t fool me because you already did
But you think about yourself
Only but yourself
But what about…
Un-lonely nights, romantic moments
The love
What about them
Throw it all away
The perfect dates, the sweetest kisses
What about them
Throw it all away

2007-03-05T16:31:00.000+08:00

My head is bloody but unbowed -xin

achtung... iary.... Lippen eines Engels...

2007-02-20T12:07:00.000+08:00

Honey why you calling me so late? It's kinda hard to talk right now. Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay? I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud. Well, my man's in the next room
Sometimes I wish he was you. I guess we never really moved on. It's really good to hear your voice say my name. It sounds so sweet. Coming from the lips of an angel. Hearing those words it makes me weak. And I never wanna say goodbye. But you make it hard to be faithful. With the lips of an angel. It's funny that you're calling me tonight. And, yes, I've dreamt of you too. And does she know you're talking to me. Will it start a fight. No I don't think he has a clue. Well my man's in the next room. Sometimes I wish he was you. I guess we never really moved on. It's really good to hear your voice say my name. It sounds so sweet. Coming from the lips of an angel.Hearing those words it makes me weak. And I never wanna say goodbye. But you make it hard to be faithful. With the lips of an angel. It's really good to hear your voice say my name. It sounds so sweet. Coming from the lips of an angel. Hearing those words it makes me weak. And I never wanna say goodbye. But you make it hard to be faithful. Honey why you calling me so late?

Dell Support Brings Vista & Office 2007 to Life

2007-02-15T19:40:00.000+08:00

baguio... baguio... baguio...

2007-02-14T02:49:00.000+08:00

you cant deny this!

2007-02-01T03:38:00.000+08:00

I created a Slide Show! Check it out!

2006-12-13T00:16:00.000+08:00

for a libra

2006-11-28T07:05:00.000+08:00

3 libras

threw you the obvious
and you flew with it
on your back,
a name in your recollection,
thrown down among a million same.
difficult not to feel
a little bit disappointed
and passed over
when i've looked right through
to see you naked and oblivious
and you don't see me.
but i threw you the obvious
just to see if there's more behind
the eyes of a fallen angel,
the eyes of a tragedy.
here i am expecting just a little bit
too much from the wounded.
but i see through it all
and see you.
so i threw you the obvious
to see what occurs behind
the eyes of a fallen angel,
eyes of a tragedy. oh well.
apparently nothing.
you don't see me.
you don't see me at all.

idol!!!!

2006-09-17T16:49:00.000+08:00

Email Thread

2006-09-17T13:14:00.000+08:00

he said:

mahal i missed you! I can spend my whole week with you only

its always a good to have you in my life.
it really feels great when i wake up every morning knowig
that you are there and giving the best love that you can
im praying to God to give us a to always be strong in our relationship
and to have a matured thinking in life, i wish you all the best
i hope you appreciate the small things that i do to you
coz those things really comes from my heart
this may sound corny but its try, just like i always say
im just a good follower of my heart..
i love you!

she said:

il will always be here for you.
lets help each other para mag improve tau sa mga
sarili natin.. lets keep our communication lines open.
of course i appreciate everything that you do to me..

he said:

i just appreciate having you in my life
although ive told you this a hundred times im proud
having you and i will always be...
mwah!

she said:

uu ako din, palaging thankful for having u..

he said:

i hope pag naglipat ka na ng place
di ka parin magbabago..hehe
kahit na mapromote ko jan sa work mo at may mameet
mayayamang guys at pogi pa! sana ako parin mahal mo

she said:

dont worry mahal.
saka, ikaw lang one and only ko,
kahit sinong pogi at cute na makilala ko.
ikaw pa rin mahal ko.
kahit palitan ko pa si michael dell sa position nya.
ikaw pa rin mahal ko.
kahit baligtad pa ikot ng mundo
ikaw pa rin mahal ko.

sana ikaw din jan.
kahit madaming sexy at maganda jan.
ako pa rin mahal mo.
kahit isa ka nang sikat na kantatero,
ako parin mahal mo. dapat lagi mko kasama sa pictorial mo.

he said:

syempre naman, madaming kamukha mo pero
isa lang rain sa buhay ko
ikaw lang naman makakintindi sakin e
wala namang magaganda at sexi dito e
puro pugita, kaw lang pinakamaganda at
pinak sexi para sakin..
your a goddess!!!!

after this very sweet email thread, we spend the night together
continuing whats left unspoken.
Verbalizing all the sentiments inside that seldom be expressed.
In each others arms. Holding each other tight like theres no tomorrow.
Tears of joy overflowing... The passion that cannot be concealed.
Ending the night as with you and welcoming tomorrow with you tenderness.
God, I wont exchange this to anything else..
Thank you for giving me such a piece of miracle.

"Feels like being underwater
Now that Ive let go
And lost control
Water kisses fill my mouth
Water fills my soul
Kiss me once
Well, maybe twice
Oh, it never felt so nice"

two become one.

2006-09-12T13:42:00.000+08:00

This night is exeptional! I cannot express in words what would best describe what happened and what i felt about it. I feel like im a brand new person. Though at first i thought it was fear that i am feeling. But now I know its not. How can I fear such a beautiful experience? Thank you for trusting me.

i say:
I dont know if your getting what I mean about this.. But i just want you to know that, this is only for you. i hope it gave you assurance of my feelings towards you. i dont want to gve other impression though... i love you so much.

After that event, i felt one with you. Seems that we are not separate person. I hugged you tight, kissed you with all my heart.. i know this wont happen again.. (not as special as this one) thats why, i will treasure this forever. Though, sometimes your asking me, whats there left for you.. That ones for you, i dont know if you would appreciate that.

The Gift....

2006-07-19T07:48:00.000+08:00

Mico and I was talking one night in MAkati. We got stranded in the rush hour traffic so we decided to let the time past and went to McDonald's. Theres one instance that he is kind of asking for an assurance if I realy love him.. coincidentaly, this song is played.. and I just said "let the song speak for me" while looking deep into his eyes to prove that I am really sincere...

"all i want is to hold you forever, I need is you more evryday.
you saved my heart, from being broken apart
you gave your love away, and im thankful everyday
for the gift..."

and there is this one time also, were laying side by side..
sharing the night together, and he requested me to sing for him..
so though i dont really have the gift of voice.. after the long time of
convincing...

i sang that song.. sweet,, though im really shy..
hehehe

neway.. new experience. at least nagawa ko din un isang bagay na matagal ko nang gustong gawin para sa kanya... hehe

i say:matagal na pala itong nasa draft ko, nakita ko lang ulit, so i posted it na.

ky jelly

2006-06-24T16:20:00.000+08:00

this is exciting... while mico is in la union.. we found a new way of over comming our cravings for each other.. hehehe.. at least in the mean time... :P

i dont want to go in details.. however this is something new and im really in a high right now, just thinking of that.. hehehe.. i never imagined...

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on the other hand. im really wondering when will mico go back here in manila... im missing him badly.... i could give him a thousand of hugs and kisses when we see each other again... mmwaaaah! :*

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about work, our DHT (digital home training) officially ended yesterday.. huhuh.. we took some pics and it made me a little sad..(ill post the pics when go my reader...) the boracay babies will be disbanded.. huhuhuh... but we have an extension of 1 week for out of scope training.. cool eh? and then we already have our teams and log ins.. exciting!! *wink*wink*

where the street has no name...

2006-06-20T16:22:00.000+08:00

I was young but I wasn't naive. I watched helpless as you turned around to leave and still I have the pain I have to carry a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried. after all this time I never thought we'd be here never thought we'd be here when my love for you was blind but I couldn't make you see it couldn't make you see it that I loved you more than you'll ever know and part of me died when I let you go I would fall asleep only in hopes of dreaming that everything would be like it was before but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor I can't meet Losing sleep over this No I can't And now I cannot stop pacing Give me a few hours I'll have this all sorted out If my mind would just stop racing Cause I cannot stand still I can be this unsturdy This cannot be happening This is over my head But underneath my feet Cause by tomoroow morning I'll have this thing beat And everything will be back to the way that it was I wish that it was just that easy Cause I'm waiting for tonight Been waiting for tomoroow I'm somewhere in between What is real Just a dream see the pyramids around the Nile watch the sunrise from a tropic isle just remember darling all the while you belong to me see the marketplace in old Angier send me photographs and souvenirs just remember when a dream appears you belong to me and I'll be so alone without you maybe you'll be lonesome too fly the ocean in a silver plane see the jungle when it's wet with rain just remember till you're home again you belong to me

108th Independence day of The Philippines

2006-06-14T00:58:00.000+08:00

May pakain sa cafeteria!!! libre Filipino food!
Grabe..
Nasaan un stub namin??!
ilabas nyo na!!!
gutom na kami!!
sarap ng palabok, muntik ko na makalimutan pangalan ko sa sobrang tigas ng noodles!!

Wala ba kayong napansin kung anong natira sa mga plato namin????

in fairness, un dinuguan an malaking mejo yellow na puto masarap.. pero ung puting puto hindi! hehe.. meron din palang tokwat baboy at lugaw. teka lugaw diba pangkaing intsik un???

syempre un palabok, ever present pa rin!!!

Dell's first of summer -White Rock, Subic

2006-05-28T20:18:00.000+08:00

We had our company outing last saturday May 27, 2006. It was cool! There is a battle of the band.. and it rocks man!!! however the trainee contestant didnt win.. but thats alright.. and a contest for a hawaiian suit is also took place.. over all the experience is good... just not in the mood to be in details... maybe nest time.. hehehe. But here are some fotos...

reminicin..

2006-05-28T19:54:00.000+08:00

June 17,2005
KLSP
Kulang lang sa pansin...
these days have been so long. Havent gone home for a week because lacking of money.
Got your sister and niece sick and your aunt drowned in debt. and your best friend no where to be found. A lover drifting away. and a ghost that I made and I cant rid of. your mother denied you and you cant even see your other sister.
i dont know what to think now...

im browsing at my old blog and read this one.... i just realized that I am so messed up and wasted around that time... i am thankful now and it is not the case anymore. Ive been home with mama and my sister for a while.. (though still lacking of money.. hehe) everyone in the family okay. My best friend seem to be contented in his life. my aunt is alright in bulacan.. and the ghost is gone.. and I have a great love of my life!! I couldnt ask for more.. (in this aspect).. I dont have a chance to always say thanks.. so thank God for everything. i adore You..

I adore You, I adore You
there's none that compares to Your majesty,
I adore You, I adore You,
And I stand, in the wonder of Your love.

No more lonely nights

2006-05-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

After our hostility for each other, we had a roller coaster week.. I cannot remember it from day one but i will try to remember it from backwards..

today.. may 13, saturday

Mico, didn’t made to work because he’s not feeling well. (we don’t know the real reason behind this.. hehehe) we spent the day together in bulacan and had a very groovy day! we took breakfast, fix the roof and ate our lunch at 5:30pm. he has to go to work tonight so we took the taxi to ortigas and I go straight to the condo.

yesterday.. may 12 friday

I woke up at 8am worrying about my requirement in dell without the money and everything, I cannot do anything.. huhuhuhu! So instead of waiting for him in the pantry till 11am, i went to 44th and try to amuse myself and try to borrow some money. I also thought that gracey would be there, but I learned that shes already in night shift.
Anyway, the salary is already released in the morning so we had the chance to fix my BIR form. We went to BIR pasig to have the 1902 stamped, since my office is located there so i thought they will be the one responsible for that. we arrived there 12pm darn! its lunch time.. i really pity myself that time, and I am shy to mico since I only have 60 pesos on my wallet.. so my movers are really limited... i really need this today so i didnt mind what i felt and go on with the procedure, cautious with mico's gesture. Badtrip! they didnt accept my form for it should be stamoed at Valenzuala. I figured out that i must be because of previouse work.. so we sent to valenzuela... the trip lasted for 1.5 hours. mico is sleeping in any chance that he may have.. in the fx, in the bus... and he paid all the fare thinking that this is for my cause.. i am pathetic! good thing that it only took about 15 minutes for the 1902 to be stamped... and its already 430pm. WE decided to go home to bulacan for him to have enough sleep before going t0 work tomorrow at 1:00am.

Okay, he is sleeping now and i checked his cp again.. im cherishing the pain that i am feeling of the thought that he is still texting her.. take note, with the emphasis on asking where the hell is her training location.. gues lang ng gues! damn! I collected HIS & HER txt and put it on a folder.. (para mas madali kong saktan ung sarili ko? di na ako mag hahanap pa sa inbox...) anyway, I made a note for him for i just cannot confront him about this.. nung naka latag na kami at nag ttxt sya sa sup nya dahil di na sya makakapasok, siguro nadaanan nya sa drafts at nabasa un note ko... niyakap nya ako at tinanong.. sinabi nya sa akin na wala naman ibig sabhin un.. Haaay! ang hirap naman ndi ako makapag salita... shit.

the other day, may 11 thursday

Morning, naglalambing si mico sa akin...we are talking sweet nothings to each other. and he is telling me to take care on my next work.. saying our i love you's.. hugging and kissing in the morning.. (this is really beginning to be our habbit..hehehe) and when he went down to the cr, I got the chance to read his messages in the celphone and found something out. He is texting her x under the name mariposa .. and i have confirmed it when i checked his sim phonebook. (sabi ko na nga ba! kahina hinala yang mariposa na iyan.. unang beses ko lang nakita nag text sa kanya un kinutuban na ako.) so i thought, does he love her still? and I asked him "Mahal mo na ba talaga ako?" to emphasize if he really has forgotten her already...o kung may kashare pa ba ako sa kanya. then after reading this message he hugged me and cried while telling me "rain, mahal na mahal kita! kaya nga ako nag kakaganito eh.." oh my.. nawala ung galit ko eh at naiyak na rin ako and i told him also what i feel for him without mentioning about this mariposa anymore... we cried and give assurance to each other for a while.. we realized that im just transferring job why are we like this? and we laughed...

We watched video ate lunch then we get to sleep again.. slept and get groovy in the afternoon, we took bath and planned to take a sleep again because he has work later. but he cant sleep then i woke up just to eat dinner and we began to prepare to go out... its raining.

the other other day.. may 10 wednesday

After we delivered the invitation, we go home to alabang, we were so tired that we slept in the bus for so long.. then we took a jeep to go back, we had our sleep as soon as the bed is ready... when we wake up in the morning, we went out to buy breakfast, then watched DVD after lunch. went to festival mall to rent cd's afternoon, we ate squid balls, palabok, and goto. We also bought sanja (pakwan), kalamansi and sinigwelas. we watched joan or arc when we got home. We are so full with the snacks we had so didn’t even ate our dinner… hehehe
Nakahiga na kami nung gabi, then si mico niyayakap ako ng mahigpit and saying I love you.. weird. Ano naman kaya nasa isip nya?

the other other other day.. may 9 tuesday

After his shift, we went to national bookstore to buy materials for the invitation. then we go to mama's place to print and do the invitation.. this is a very tiring day.. we did it by 7:00pm we ate dinner before leaving then we delivered it to partas terminal to be way billed. its already 12:00am

may8 monday

We designed the invitation and grooved the day away! then we went to work, i wore the black dress lou ann gave me... we went to metro walk after we log in and ate at yahoo.

may7 sunday

We went to church after his shift then we went home to bulacan..

may6saturday

Nasa condo kami... natulog lang kami mag hapon.. then pumasok nung gabi.

may5 friday

Pumunta pala kami sa agency nya para kumuha nung tax refund nya. Mejo aloof pa sya.. pero pinapansin na nya ako.. pag ka kuha ng refund nag punta kami sa glorietta at kumain ng inihaw na pork chop. then nag tour ako ngaun sa dell. ***ndi sya pumasok nung gabi, buti nalang at wala pala talaga silang pasok ngaun. we watched silent hill but got bored, so we just strolled at baywalk.***

may4 thursday

Pero nung umaga, mejo di maganda nangyari, pag sundo sa akin sa pantry, bigla nalang ako binara bara tapos ko ikwento ang panaginip ko tapos gusto na raw umuwi, tapos di na ako kinausap.

Nung gabi, tnxt ko si mico kung mag sabay kami pumasok.. nung una ang sungit ng text nya pero pumayag naman sya. habang nag lalakad kami sa parking lot sa podium,,, may ka txt sya. hmmm suspicious ung txter nya, mariposa pangalan... malalaman ko rin kung sino sya... ok na sana ung gabi, kaso nakita ni mico na ka chat ko si nel sa ym, then may di magandang comment si nel na nabasa nya.. ayun! galit nanaman sya sa akin.. huhuhu.. ano ba ito? Mag bebreak na kami nung eh, kaya nung bumaba kami, ndi na nya ako kinakausap.. as in dead ma.. tahimik talaga.. nakakailang. Ndi na kami sabay umakyat dahil pinauna na nya ako…

may 3 wednesday

Nag lambing sa akin si mico at maaga ako pinapasok para sabay kami...okay naman un buong gabi…

club dredd

2006-05-15T22:23:00.000+08:00

May 4

mico and i had a disagreement on something that is really not clear. it may be because of the forum, my dream, kenneth, friday, nelson, his mentality, or my insensitivity. This really kranked my day for we had a very good time together before this and all of the sudden he gave me this not really tolerable tantrum. Good thing is we both came up with our senses and made up the next day.. we said our sorries, and everything... the loving feeling back again!! hmmm sarap!

achtung, baby

2006-05-15T00:48:00.000+08:00

guys.. i still got two more entires but its way too late. I need to take my sleep coz i still got work tomorrow.. its my first day in Dell so i dont like to mess it up.

dont worry, i will post it as soon as I can.. maybe tomorrow?

aight?! byei!! the best!

Summer Get Away!

2006-05-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

After our visit in la union, we went to Baguio and had our 2 days quality time.. hehehe

Grimace, at its best...
pakalat kalat sa SM baguio si grimace. nag papacute. hehehehe

sa burnham park, kasama ng mga puting bulaklak...

ito naman sa mga yellow flowers..

hehehe. laki ng smile.

parang iisa lang un ngiti ni mico dun sa isang pic?

green lights, we are trying to capture the beautiful effect

of the green light in the background but what weve got?

The bulb itself producing the lame green light...

(i think im redundant with the green light..)

weeeh! okay lang hapi pa rin!

ito pa, isang pasaway na pic,

dapat kita un mga boat jan .. pati un tubig..

eh madilim kaya kami lang inabot nung flash pati nung picture.

ito ung tinuluyan namin..

cozy jan. sarap manood ng UFC.

at mag groovy! hehehehe!

pauwi na kami..

sa fx, papuntang terminal kaya mejo serious..

pero ung preset na smile ko nanjan pa rin.. hehehe!

pahabol pa..

ito pala ung bording house na tinuluyan namin nung unang gabi..

kala mo sa pantry lang eh,,

hehe but in fairness the people here is accomodating..

wala nga lang costumer satisfaction.

i say:

korni ko mag narrate... pero ayus lang.. its all in the mind. wakekeke!

Naguillan babes...

2006-05-14T23:22:00.000+08:00

April 2006
After we had our SSS sicknes benefit, we planned to go to la union and visit his clan and friends .. here are some pictures...

si ate joy, ako, nanay, axel and ang makulit na si jireh.

mico, rain, cherry, christian, jason, and andy. Sa jeep papunta sa plaza.. sa wakas makikita ko na un plaza!

i still got more but its not here in my mothers pc.. so maybe nest time, ill post it... peace out!

Welcome to DELL!

2006-03-31T21:45:00.000+08:00

I just had my final interview with DELL last March 29, 2006... And luckily I passed!!
Wohhoooo!

i hope this will be a new life for me. Its just that I will be more happy if my love would also be there... I will wait for him.. WE can have a new life started there. Goodbye painful past.

I will start in March 15th... so DELL here I come!

Goodbye alorica.. Goodbye Gateway.. I will miss you and thank you for the experience.

and goodbye to those supervisors that sucked to death! Who claims to be sick and tired that he is compared to his agents.. but cannot arrange my TMS.. you know who you are. and goodbye. I must have what I owe to have before I leave you...

High School Life...

2006-03-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

1. Bakit ka nahuhuli sa pila bago mag-flagceremony?- pag nahuli si mang raul na sunduin ako sa bahay...
2. Anong favorite mong bilhin sa canteen?- Squid balls, nova, mountain due, palabok at spagetti. intermediate paper at ballpen.
3. Na-guidance/principal's/csde office ka na ba?- oo, nag liligawan daw kami dun sa harap ng bahay ng mga madre kaya di namin narinig ang bell sfter nung recess...
4. Sinong favorite teacher mo doon?- Ms. Dela cruz. adviser ko nung 2nd year
5. Sinong HATEST teacher mo naman?- ms, Vibar!
6. San ka usually tumatambay? Why?- Sa may corridor. Sa TAMIE's Corner.
7. What's ur most unforgettable experience sa highschool mo?- Nasipa ako sa mukha ng walang hiyang si Jhun!! hehehe 3rd year.
8. -nasan?- ... na kaya si ms. dela cruz?
9. Sinong una mong nakilala sa high school mo?- ...Cruzzette Macasero.
10. Sinong mga kabarkada mo nung nag-graduateka from HS?- RObert, jeff, cor, pendio, shie, grace taba, grace christy, jane, pj, spin, carol, Basta buong L.A...111. Na-mimiss mo na ba yung uniform mo?- Mejo, mukha kasing sosyal pag naka unifor eh... hehe
12. Ilang beses mo nang nawawala ung ID mo?- 1 beses lang.
13. Favorite teacher's quotable quote?- ... kleptomaniac!
14. Most unforgettable person? Why?- hmm....
15. Kelan sa tingin mo dadating ang yearbook?- dumating na, hati pa nga kami ni louann sa yearbook. shocks!
16. I-describe ang mukha mo sa grad pic..- Di makabasag pinggan... :)
17. Anong binibili mo sa labas tuwing uwian?- mangga, songhits, sampalok.
18. Nakakita ka na ba ng multo sa school?- nope...
19. Nangarag ka ba sa updating/paghahabol sagraduation?- hindi, sinungitan pa nga ako nung teacher ko sa CL kasi kumpleto ko notes ko kaya ayaw ko kumanta,,,
20. Anung unang-una mong ginawa ryt aftergraduation?- pinuntahan ko ung bf ko dati sa tamie's.. :)
21. Anong contests/competitions angsinalihan/napanalunan mo?- Bb. Laura.
24. Kung papalitan ang color ng uniform anongkulay? Baket?- ... Blue pa rin.
25. Nasa friendster mo ba yung crush mo saHS mo dati?- Yea
26. Did you ever regret going to ur HS?- Nope! super memorable sa lahat,..
27. Kilala mo ba kung sino ang nag-post nitoat sino siya sa school?- no idea
28. Sino sa mga ka-batch nio ang dapatnapasali sa STARSTRUCK?- Si gary. si elou. ako! heheheheheheh
29. San ka nag-aaral ngaun? Course?- tapos na
30. Sino ang peborit lab team of dem all mo?- elou at gary. peborit kong pag awayin!!
31. Anu-ano ang mga section mo? from kinder toHS??-
grade 6-pagsinta1st-zircon2nd opal3rd coral4th burgos

2006-02-23T20:13:00.000+08:00

The best!!

2006-02-08T22:54:00.000+08:00

I believe in you I've been thinking about all the things that you do Your eyes when they stare leaves me weak I like the way you sweep me off my feet Now I can't speak... I breakdown when you're not around. I believe in dreams I've been taking my time to see, If we'll ever meet Baby your eyes when they stare leaves me weak I like the way you sweep me off my feet love I can't speak... I breakdown when you're not around.

interesting song...

2006-02-08T22:20:00.000+08:00

"If I Was The One"
I see the way he treats you
I feel the tears you cry
And it makes me sad and it makes me mad
There's nothin' I can do,
babyCuz your lover is my best friend
And I guess that's where the story ends
So I've gotta try to keep it inside
You'll never be, never be mine[1] -

But if I was the one who was loving you, baby
The only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy
And if I was by your side
You'd never know one lonely night
If it was my arms you were running to
I'd give you love in these arms of mine
If I was the one in your life
If I could have just one wish
I'd wish that you were mine
I would hold you near, kiss away those tears
I'd be so good to you, baby
You're the one I want next to me
But I guess that's just not meant to be
He's there in your life, he's sharing your nights
I'll never be, never be, never be right

I want to reach out and feel you beside me, beside me
Right here, right now, right beside me baby, baby
And take you in my arms right now
And scream I love you right out loud
And then someday I'll pray I'll find
I'll find the strength to turn to you and say

If I was the one, if I was the one, the one
If I was the one in your life

2006-02-08T21:04:00.000+08:00

The battle agains the salvation of an everlasting relationship with the opposite sex.

interesting.... i frend of mine sent this message during our chat online...

out of boredom 2

2006-02-07T21:31:00.000+08:00

1. Name Two Bad Habits You Have:
:: over eating... over sleeping... over everything! im so OA!

2. Name Two Things That You Wish You Had:
:: slim body, and lighter skin..

3. Name two Scents You Love:
:: D&G light blue and Hugo Red

4. Name Two People That Know You the Best:
:: you! and me! ...

5. Name Two Things You'd Never Wear:
:: i'd never wear a T-back!

6. Name Two Things You Are Thinking About Now:
:: should i stay, or should i go home...

7. Name Four Things That You Have Done Today:
::
1. internet
2. talked to mico
3. slept
4. ate FOOD!

8. Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought:
:: BEER! candy, pulutan, 2 pcs of Chicken in KFC

9. Name Four Bands/Vocals/Groups:
:: incubus, korn, urbandub... of course my mico! hehe

10. Name three Drinks You Regularly Drink:
:: water, coffee, and alcohol!

11. First Grade Teacher Name?
:: Mrs. nuqui... [or should that be mrs nookie?] St. Mary's
Meycauayan

12. Last Words You Said:
:: Fuck!

13. Last Song You Sang?
: nice to know you... -incubus

14. Last Person You Hugged?
:: michael

15. Last Thing You Laughed At?
:: michael, with his groovy jokes... harhar!!

16. Last Time You Said 'I Love You' And Meant It?
:: last last night... Feb 7.. around 3am..

17. Last Time You Cried?:
:: January 28, night

18. What's In Your CD Player?
:: morning view sessions.. incubus [again.. they're my fad for the moment..]

19. What Color Socks Are You Wearin?
:: branded black socks

20. What's Under Your Bed?
:: my mp3 player

21. What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
:: 800am

22. Current Passion?
:: thinking of mico or michael..

23. Current Hair?
:: long, pony tailed hair. black. layered.

24. Current Clothes?
:: white oversized T-shirt. and a cargo shorts.

25. Current Annoyance?
:: that guy named... L.O.

26. Current Longing?
:: i long for something to eat that i cant name..

27. Current Desktop Picture?
:: Windows Default

28. Current Worry?
:: am i going to work this week?

29. Current Hate?
:: i hate being a bummer!

30. Favorite Physical Feature Of Opposite Sex?
:: i like those slim but muscled arms.. and a good
and appealing eyes. long straight hair..

out of boredom

2006-02-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN YOU'RE DEPRESSED?
> lsiten to music, write and hurt myself
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO NAME YOUR FUTURE CHILD?
> when i was a child, i would like to name my baby "myracle".
WHAT MAKES YOU NERVOUS?
> having a serious conversation where im not sure where do i stand...
WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
> humiliation... emo things
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF HOMOSEXUAL MARRIAGES?
>its olryt, its okay... i think God can explain
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF ABORTION?
> depends on..
WHAT'S ONE THING YOU LOVE ABOUT YOUR COUNTRY?
> people..
DESCRIBE YOUR MOM
> my mom? unpredictable
MOST MEANINGFUL THING SAID TO YOU?
> i need you... help me...
NUMBER OF OVERNIGHTS YOU'VE GONE
> countless...
DO YOU LIKE BUYING BRANDED CLOTHES?
> yea...
DO YOU KNOW YOUR BESTFRIEND'S FRIENDSTER PASSWORD?
> used to... but not anymore
DO YOU FOLLOW FASHION TRENDS?
> not really... i like basic clothing..
HAVE YOU EVER RAN AWAY?
> nope... have planned to, but never coward enough to do it.
HAVE YOU EVER INTENTIONALLY IGNORED SOMEONE?
> yes.
HAVE YOU EVER WENT ON A ROMANTIC DATE?
>of course...
HAVE YOU EVER RECEIVED A LOVE LETTER? WHEN WAS THE FIRST TIME?
> yup.. i think whe i was in 5th grade
HAVE YOU EVER WRITTEN A LOVE LETTER? WHEN WAS THE FIRST TIME?
> yes.. a lot of times.. not sure when was the first time
IF YOU COULD SPEND A WEEK ANYWHERE, WHERE YOULL GO?
> sagada... or in boracay..
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PAST?
> whatever it is, it makes me a better person
WHERE DO YOU USUALLY GO SHOPPING?
> anywhere... when i see something nice and got the fund, ill get it!

PART 2

Would you drop your last name if you became famous?
- no, my surname alone makes me famous.
Age you wish you were:
- 19?
Lefty / righty / ambidextrous?
- righty..
Piercings?
- used to have in my tongue.. and dreaming of having it again.
Tattoos?
- nah...
Addictions?
- Michael Lumanga..
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
- my love for food...
What do you like the most about your body?
- my nose.. eyes... everything on my upper part of my body... kinda...
Would or Have You Ever Hurt yourself?When was the last time?
- yes.. several times. last two weeks
Had surgery?
- recently...
Been on stage?
- yah... as a tree in our school play.. hehe [not to mention, we won the first price there] lolz..
Thought about suicide?
- yes,,, not coward enough to do it..
Slept all day?
- YAH baby!!! hahaha!!!
Been betrayed?
- not really..
Met a famous person?
- yeah... champ recently asked me to watch cueshe.. hehe..
Stolen anything?
- yah..
Had a dream that kept coming back?
- hmmm...

PART 3

Right This Moment: What are you worried about?
- my hospital papers...
Are you bored?
- bored as hell... ive been in a vacation for almost a month!
Are you talking to anyone online?
- yes: mico
Are you listening to music?
- yes: wish you were here

im being emotional

2006-02-07T15:21:00.000+08:00

I wanna feel this way longer than time

I wanna know your dreams and make them mine

I wanna change the world only for you

All the impossible i wanna do

I wanna hold you close under the rain

I wanna kiss your smile and feel your pain

I know it's beautiful looking at you

You're in a world of lies, you are the truth

And baby, every time you touch me,

I become a heroI'll make you safe no matter where you are

And bring you anything you ask for,

nothing is above me

I'm shining like a candle in the dark

When you tell me that you love me

I wanna make you see just what i want

Show you that lonliness and what it does
You walked into my life to stop my tears

Everything is easy now, I have you here

And baby, every time you touch me,

I become a hero

I'll make you safe no matter where you are

And bring you anything you ask for,

nothing is above me

I'm shining like a candle in the dark

When you tell me that you love me

In a world without you

I will always hunger

All i need is true love to make me stronger
And baby, every time you touch me,

I become a hero

I'll make you safe no matter where you are

And bring you anything you ask for,

nothing is above me

I'm shining like a candle in the dark

When you tell me that you love me

Present time

2006-02-06T21:28:00.000+08:00

whew! last night was superb.... mico, me and gracey had a gmik and we drink some beer.. we went to pier one. The taxi driver is sooooo innocent that when we asked him to bring us to pier 1, he thinks that we are actually going to the PEIR.. u know..

we talked, catched up with each other... and had a good time. Eventhough the music killed me.. [the whole stay we had techno/rave music in the background.. what the F--K?!!]

gracey had so many things to say.. about office, faith, her family and everything.. :) most of the time we are listening to her.. its ok though.

by the way, we went to church earlier.. and the service is about Generosity.. you must have to find the "joy of giving", and "privilage of giving" ... hmm thats what is left in my mind. actually that is four level.. and everything went along fine.. kind of participated with the songs.. newaY..

continue with the gmik.. we had 2 pitchers of draft beer, all time sisig, and fried crablets.. sarap! sayang lang di ko natikman ulet ang masarap na halo-halo dun.. ok na rin baka masira nanaman ang tyan ko! eheheh

then after that, around 12am we went home..

mico stayed at the condo.. and the story goes on..

then today..

we woke up around 830am but we actually got out of bed around 1130am. what a bummer?! hehe thats alright.. our vacation is reaching its end and we are taking advantage of it.. [at least thats my thinking...]
we hooked up the pc and got online.. ate lunch.. and watched the amithy ville DVD.. shocks! it was scary! i was screaming my lungs out! hehe anyway. after that we watched nero.. ,mico got bored and we slept after eating pancake for merienda... sarap buhay noh?! :P when we woke up that afternoon, he took a bath and went home..

and thats all for now. ;))

word of the day: GROOVY! (with the hands gesture)

late January

2006-02-06T21:21:00.000+08:00

oh well.. ive got some drafts here that i planned to post.. however, the issue is already ressolved so what's the point of posting it at this time... maybe in the future.

anyway, ive got what i need to hear and as i have said, ive gotta have faith in his words to make things not so complicated...

mid january...

2006-01-28T18:07:00.000+08:00

sometimes i cut myself to see how much it bleeds... its like adrenaline, the pain is such a sudden rush for me...

[slim shady - "stan"]

early january...

2006-01-28T17:44:00.000+08:00

okay... so ive been so happy on the first 2 weeks of january. i started my leave and went to baguio before my operation.. and the admition on the hospital. eventhough i just undergone surgery everything's seems so fine... on the hospital, i never imagined, mico ( my bf ) would be my full time companion... it gives me a good vibe and makes the recovery fast... the relatives visited me.. also some office mate and old friends..(thanks to all who didnt forget to remember) after the initial recovery in the hospital.. about 4 days,i spent my 1st week on my mother's place.. of course time flies when you are with your love.. the week end's fast approaching. im gonna spent the next one in Bulacan and mico will be going to his home town in La Union..

I have a fear.. i dont want him to go there.. cuz of his ex.. maybe im paranoid but i feel as if when he go home, he will not be mine anymore... (I'll be waiting in vain AGAIN... i dont want that to happen.) because that girl is the one he thought will be the one he'll be walking with the asle.. and this really scares the hell out of me.. i never told this to him cuz it seems ridiculus.. i gave him some alibi's i dnt know if he get what i meant.. however, i will just hold on his word that he'll comeback for me.. faith..

[faith by definition is fidelity to one's promises and obligations...] dunno why i still put this one here.. grrr!

ok, i have my ex around... so what? weve been separated for roughly 6 months.. and im sure that im over him now... (hi bestfriend!) we have the boundery and i know where to put myself when we are together... defensive? no,,, just explaining.

he is the emotional type of person.. and they just broke up recently.. and never had the formal closure.. so whats for me then? i know that we are "we" but when he see's the girl what would he do? what if she ask for another chance? or cry in front of him? there's so much running through my head... paranoia... but faith.. my friend.. have faith..

guys.... its official!

2005-12-26T10:47:00.000+08:00

i will make this post simple but true....

yes its the 26th of the december.

words cannot express how i felt. its a mixed emotions. and by now im full of anticipation and of course im very much happy.... :)

2005-12-14T23:42:00.000+08:00

thoughts of you, sweet raptured light.

To see you when I wake up is a gift I didn't think could be real. To know that you feel the same as I do is a three-fold, utopian dream. You do something to me that I can't explain. So would I be out of line if I said, I miss you. I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine. You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away. I know I'll see you again whether far or soon. But I need you to know that I care and I miss you.

mmm sarap!

2005-12-14T23:12:00.000+08:00

somebody gave me this testi in my pinoyster account.. i never thought this could be real..

Di ko mapigilang ngumiti pag ika'y nakikita
Para kang isang regalong
nagbibigay saya
Nagtataka kung anong
hiwagang mayron ka
Sana ang nadarama ay di na lumipas pa.
Para bang namamasyal sa ulap
tuwing kasama ka
Pati mga problema ko'ybiglang limot ko na
Ang oras ay biglang natrapik
biglang humihinto
Sulit ang bawat minutong
ika'y naririto.

Kay sarap isipin na naryan kapag ako'y nalulumbay
Basta't kasama ka lahat ng bagay
ay puno ng kulay
Naririnig ang daloy ng tubig at ihip ng hangin
Sa piling mo'y naglalakbay ako
at nananaginip.

Ano bang meron ka at ako'y naakit mo?
Mapungay ang mata kapag ika'y kasama ko
Basta't kapiling ka ako ay ayos na

indecisive

2005-12-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

im happy at the same time afraid.. theres a
lot of uncertainty in this world. And I just
really hope that Im in the right track of my
life...

i dont wanna be insecure for the thing i dont
know. but how can i be able to defend myself
when there come a time that I have to fight
with something that i also dont know? really
confusing.

what i am holding on to now is this joyous
feeling that i have inside... and this alone
makes me strong and knowing that he's there..
i know everythings gonna be alright.

#####

footnote: im also thankful and feel blessed that He gave
you to me.. just knowing that youre there, the
trials seems so easy and i feel as if i can
conquer evrything when im with you... just
stay the same...

Anticipated

2005-12-13T00:50:00.000+08:00

Wha...? I am happy for you! I really am... Its about time... kelan kaya yung mga susunod na kwento? By that way, do not feel anxious when talking to me regarding this subject ok. ayus? ayus!

we've got a way... anyway..

2005-12-09T12:20:00.000+08:00

oh well,, ive been inspired these past 2 weeks.. i dont know. Im still in a situation where im not sure where do I stand. However it makes me satisfied just to think how fate (if you can call it that way) turns my side of the story. hehe

i dont know what to write. I want to tell this to my best friend but im not sure how to open things up and how to justify the situation im in right now..

i just hope this will not turn out like the way it did when im "swept away" last time..

I know we share the same feelings... and we enjoy each other a lot. and its so damn complicated. and I dont want to blow this one...

thats it for now.;.

melancholy

2005-11-24T21:25:00.000+08:00

these past two days is a glum... I just had my restday last sat sun and now i found myself having another restday! hmmm ive got my sked changed and im a vampire again... its alright though.. but i hate the way i spend my resdays. if only i could be more productive... BTW, tomorrow is the elimination of the band.. i hope that my friends get in... anyway.. it a long day tomorrow. and its been a while since i updated by blog... hehe

Dare you to move...

2005-11-24T21:20:00.000+08:00

i dare you to move

Welcome to the planet

Welcome to existence

Everyone's here

Everybody's watching you now

Everybody waits for you now

What happens next?

I dare you to move

I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor

I dare you to move

Like today never happened

Today never happened before
Welcome to the fallout

Welcome to resistance

The tension is here

Between who you are and who you could be

Between how it is and how it should be
I dare you to move

I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor

I dare you to move

Like today never happened

Today never happened
Maybe redemption has stories to tell

Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell

Where can you run to escape from yourself?

Where you gonna go?

Salvation is here
I dare you to move

I dare you to lift yourself

Lift yourself up off the floor

I dare you to move

Like today never happened

Today never happened before

Everything -Lifehouse

2005-10-12T21:35:00.000+08:00

Find Me HereSpeak To Me
I want to feel youI need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need,
you're everything, everything.
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

enchanting song..

2005-10-12T21:23:00.000+08:00

i dont believe that this is sung by sponge cola... good voice

come a little closer flicker in flight
we'll have about an inch's space
but i'm here i can breathe in
what you breathe out
let me know if i'm doing this right
let me know if my grip's too tight
let me know if i can stay all of my life
let me know if dreams can come true
let me know if this one's your's too
coz' i see itand i feel it right here
and i feel you right here
the vacuous nightsteps aside to give meaning to gemini's dreaming
the moon on its backand the seemingly
veiled room's litby the same star
let me know if i'm doing this right
let me know if my grip's too tight
let me know if i can stay all of my life
let me know if dreams can come true
let me know if this one's your's too
coz' i see itand i feel it right hereand i feel you right here

drive lyrics

2005-09-26T21:41:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I cant help but ask myself how much I’ll let the fear take the wheel and steer
It’s driven me before, it seems to have a vague
Haunting mass appeal
Lately I’m beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel
Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there, I’ll be there
So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive, oh oh
It’s driven me before, it seems to be the way
That everyone else get aroundLately,
I’m beginning to find that when I drive myself, my light is found
Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be thereWith open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there, I’ll be there
Would you choose water over wine
Hold the wheel and drive
Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there, I’ll be there

Drive

2005-09-26T21:34:00.000+08:00

Ive read a status on my friend's YM status.

it says: "would you choose water over wine?"

come to think of it... WHAT would we choose?

think of it.... please put down your comments and why did you choose your answer. it will be greatly appreciated.

kwarto

2005-09-24T18:24:00.000+08:00

sorry for the lack of update.. the IT at work blocked the site.. so please bare with me. thanks!

BTW, this is a new favorite song from SugarFree entittled0 "Kwarto". This is the lyrics.. enjoy!

Maglilinis ako ng aking kwarto
Na punong-puno ng galit at damit
Mga bagay na hindi ko na kailangan
Nakaraang hindi na pwedeng pagpaliban

Oohh Oohh

Mga liham ng nilihim kong pag-ibig
At litrato ng kahapong maligalig
Dahan-dahan kong inipon
Ngunit ngayo’y kailangan nang itapon

Di ko na kayang mabuhay sa kahapon
Kaya mula ngayon, mula ngayon
May jacket mong nabubulok sa sulok
Na inaalikabok na sa lungkot
May panyong ilang ulit nang niluhaan
Isang patak sa bawat beses na tayo’y nasaktan

Mula ngayon
Ala-ala ng lumuluhang kahapon
Dahan-dahan ko na ring kinakahon
Natagpuan ko na ang tunay kong ligaya
Lumabas ako ng kwarto’t naroon siya

Magpapaalam na sa ‘yo ang aking kwarto
Magpapaalam na sa ‘yo
Magpapaalam na sa ‘yo ang aking kwarto

The end of a never started relationship... ( ? )

2005-08-21T10:08:00.000+08:00

SWEPT AWAY - christopher cross

Never had anything happen so fast
Took one look and I shattered like glass
I guess I let it show 'cause your smile told me you knew
That you're everythin' I ever wanted at once
There's no holding this heart when it knows what it wants
I never wanted anything more than to know you

I was swept away
No one in the world but you and I
Gotta find a way to make me feel the way that I do
I was swept away
Without a warning
Like night when the morning begins the day
I was swept away

And so it begins
This journey of love
The summer wind carries us to places all our own
The words of a look, the language of touch
The way that you want me means so much
And I never wanted anything more than to love you

Away
Seeing my tomorrows in your eyes
I was swept away
Ooh, I hope I wake up soon
Ooh, I'm a victim of that crazy moon

The very first time you said my name
I knew it would never sound the same
Somethin' about me is changed forever

GONE -urbandub

Where do we go from here?
the suspense is a thrill to me your feel,
your taste is still so clear i run,
but my legs can only take me so far
it's beating me down,
it's tearing me down.
Well tonight i'm
feeling emotional lonely here tonight
it?s not helping me at all.
It doesnt make it better that you're gone
it doesnt ease the pain at all that you're gone.
I scratch against the walls
i drown myself in tears imagine your hold,
but it doesnt feel as real and i, cry myself dry

karugtong ng isang awit...

2005-08-11T05:20:00.000+08:00

me and my 2 best girl friends at work went on break and we go on videoke on the near KTV bar here... with the lack of funds we picked only five favorite songs which is:

Ocean Deep
For All of My Life
Dont Want to be Your Friend
I'll be Over you
The past....

let me give you the lyrics..

Ocean deep, Im so afraid to show my feelings I have sailed a million ceilings...

For all of my life you are the one, I will love you faithfully forever.
For all of my life you are the one, I will give to you my greatest love

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before I'm not over you yet

It takes some time God knows how long I know that I can forget you
As soon as my heart stops breakin’Anticipating As soon as forever is throughI’ll be over you

I must forgive you You must forgive me too
If you wanna try to put things back the way they used to be
Cause there's no sense in going over and over The same things as before
So let's not bring the past back anymore

kind of theres a story behind the 5 songs..

is it?

2005-08-08T18:13:00.000+08:00

He says:

"loooove is in the air!!!"

She says:

"Is it?!"

How would you know if the feeling is true?

{{{bed of lies}}}

2005-07-29T07:09:00.000+08:00

No I would not sleep in this bed of lies

So toss me out and turn in

And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes

I'm marking it down to learningI am

Don't think that I can take another empty moment

Don't think that I can fake another hollow smile

It's not enough just to be sorry

Don't think that I could take another talk about it

Just like me you got needs

And they're only a whisper away

And we softly surrender

To these lives that we've tendered away

No I would not sleep in this bed of lies

So toss me out and turn in

And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes

I'm marking it down to learningI am

Don't wanna be the one who turns the whole thing over

Don't wanna be somewhere where I just don't belong

Where it's not enough just be sorry

Don't you know I feel the darkness closing in

Tried to be more than me

And I gave till it all went awayAnd we've only surrendered

To the worst part of these winters we've made

No I would not sleep in this bed of lies

So toss me out and turn in

And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes

I'm marking it down to learningI am

am all that I'll ever beWhen you - lay your hands

Over me but don't go weak on me nowI know that it's weak

But God help me I need this

I will not sleep in this bed of lies

So toss me out and turn in

And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes

I'm marking it down to learning

'Cause I am

Dysthymia

2005-07-26T12:16:00.000+08:00

Depression

Depression is a strong feeling of sadness. Many people experience depression in response to a loss or sad event. In these cases, an episode of depression usually lasts for six to nine months. However, when depression lasts longer, and the depressive symptoms go away for a short time only to return again, it is termed chronic depression. While everyone experiences sadness at one time or another, these feelings are generally temporary. Chronic depression is long-lasting, interferes with daily activities, and causes a loss of interest in things that were normally pleasurable to the patient.

What causes it?

While depression is frequently a response to a sad or traumatic event, the cause of chronic depression is often not known. Factors that are known to contribute to depression are heredity, a chemical imbalance in the brain, and significant levels of stress. Heredity refers to the fact that people who have family members with any type of depressive disorder are more likely to also experience depression. Studies of brain functioning have revealed a complex system of neurotransmitters that produce chemicals that transfer signals from nerve cell to nerve cell. Some of these neurotransmitters, such as serotonin, are responsible for feelings of well-being. Drugs that correct neurotransmitter imbalances are very effective in treating depression, which supports the theory that there is some type of chemical imbalance that triggers depression. Chronic depression can occur when stresses in a person's environment become overwhelming, such as years of childhood abuse and neglect. It can also be caused by chronic illness, such as AIDS, Parkinson's disease, chronic fatigue syndrome, certain chronic cardiac conditions, and hormonal disorders.

What are the symptoms?

The symptoms of chronic depression may come and go, with periods of depression alternating with periods of no symptoms at all. Chronic depression usually begins gradually, with vague feelings of sadness that gradually build in intensity. The individual may begin to have difficulty sleeping, or want to sleep more than usual. He or she may experience changes in eating habits, feelings of hopelessness, low self-esteem, low energy levels, restlessness, loss of interest in normal activities, decreased sex drive, feelings of guilt for no reason, difficulty maintaining relationships, and difficulty concentrating. In severe cases, the individual may have thoughts of death, or may attempt suicide. People with chronic depression have at least two of these symptoms for a period of two years or more. People with chronic depression are generally gloomy and extremely critical of themselves and others. They are usually seen as extremely negative people, who seem to expect failure and take no pleasure in anything.

***thanks to a to z topics

parting time...

2005-07-25T00:34:00.000+08:00

as of now i am smothered by the thought of things comming and leaving to your life...
B*&%S@^*&!!!

and seems that people around is not responding.

...

2005-07-21T22:10:00.000+08:00

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

WANTED: Hero

2005-07-20T13:14:00.000+08:00

Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back
Would you cry if you saw me crying
Would you save my soul tonight?

Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh oh please tell me these
Now would you die for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight?

Would you swear that you'll always be mine?
Would you lie would you run away
Am I in to deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care you're here tonight

:::laughs:::

2005-07-19T13:39:00.000+08:00

Visit this site and find out your ideal Job!!! you will laugh so hard, makes you wanna die!

http://www.jobpredictor.com/

i will love in you in a pouring rain....

2005-07-13T20:17:00.000+08:00

in the office... but no work. as usual hanging out with my friends here at the night shift. My life in the morning is really gloomy. and trying to conceal the sad feeling.

I am thinking right now on how can I stay with my house when my room mate is planning to relocate at kamuning. I want to stay but there's no fund to deposit and advance the rent of the room. Just when I am starting to have plans in that place...

and another thing. I feel lonely... my reason for everyday seems not enough to wake me up in the morning.

u know i need you, u know i love you, you know i care, i know u love me, i know you need me, i know u care... but what do we mean to each other?

wherever you are....

2005-07-07T14:14:00.000+08:00

I LOVE TO SEE THE OCEAN’S BEAUTY

AND THE MOON THAT SHINES ABOVE

ALONE IN THE SAND LOOKING AT THE STARS

WISHING SOMEDAY I WOULD FIND TRUE LOVE

WOULD IT BE NICE TO SEE THE MORNING

WITH THE ONE YOU LOVE THE MOST

WOULD IT BE NICE TO SAY GOODNIGHT

TO THE ONE YOU HOLD SO CLOSE TO YOUR HEART

***

THE WIND THAT BLOWS THE DOVE

IS THE WIND THAT BLOWS MY LOVE

HOPE IT’LL FIND ITS WAY TO YOU

WHEREVER YOU ARE.

***

I LOVE TO SIT IN FIELDS OF GREEN

LOOKING DEEPLY THROUGH THE SKY

WATCHING BIRDS AS THEY FLY BY

HOPING SOMEDAY FATE WILL BRING ME TRUE LOVE.

WOULD IT BE NICE TO HOLD SOMEONE

SO DEAR, NEAR YOUR HEART

WOULD IT BE NICE TO HEAR THOSE WORDS

I LOVE YOU FROM THE ONE THAT YOU LOVE

***

I’D LOVE TO SEE MYSELF ONE DAY

IN THE ARMS OF SOMEONE

WHO WILL SHARE HIS LIFE WITH ME

SELFLESSLY…SOMEDAY…

YOU WILL FIND YOUR WAY…TO ME…

sanctuary*

2005-07-07T14:12:00.000+08:00

*safe small place in a troubled world

i think im lost and i badly need guidance...

eRASeRHeADS {anthology}

2005-07-06T13:52:00.000+08:00

Disk 1

Ligaya
Pare Ko
Toya
Minsan
Overdrive
Kailan
Sembreak
And Huling El Bimbo
Alapaap
With a Smile
Magasin
Superproxy
Torpedo
Huwag Mo Nang Itanong
Kamasupra

Disk 2

Kaliwete
Hard To Believe
Para sa Masa
Bogchi Hokbu
Maselang Bahaghari
Pop Machine
Huwag Kang Matakot
Maskara
Hula
Julie Tear Jerky
Fruitcake
Trip to Jerusalem
Tuwing Umuulan At Kapiling Ka
Run Barbie Run
Police WOman
Tamagochi Baby
Harana
Sa Tollgate

New Book

2005-07-06T06:46:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, as I am walking in the mall I saw a stall where they sell children's books. A pink book caught my attention and i approached the stall and took the book. It is tittled "Girls Rule". Its an interesting book so even im broke i still managed to get it. [honestly i considered getting it without paying for it... so bad!] I will post some of its quotes and very inspiring text when I have the time. Its just the basics for it is a children book, but mostly the basics is what we missed thats why we have short commings in life.

*i feel as if that i am not given a chance to read this book during my childhood thats why im like this. [cant even establish an eye to eye contact with a stranger] This is my time to cope up and catch up with my being....

REALITY: We are busy looking at the big picture that we never see the important little details in it.