{{{bed of lies}}}

No I would not sleep in this bed of lies

So toss me out and turn in

And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes

I'm marking it down to learningI am

Don't think that I can take another empty moment

Don't think that I can fake another hollow smile

It's not enough just to be sorry

Don't think that I could take another talk about it

Just like me you got needs

And they're only a whisper away

And we softly surrender

To these lives that we've tendered away

No I would not sleep in this bed of lies

So toss me out and turn in

And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes

I'm marking it down to learningI am

Don't wanna be the one who turns the whole thing over

Don't wanna be somewhere where I just don't belong

Where it's not enough just be sorry

Don't you know I feel the darkness closing in

Tried to be more than me

And I gave till it all went awayAnd we've only surrendered

To the worst part of these winters we've made

No I would not sleep in this bed of lies

So toss me out and turn in

And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes

I'm marking it down to learningI am

am all that I'll ever beWhen you - lay your hands

Over me but don't go weak on me nowI know that it's weak

But God help me I need this

I will not sleep in this bed of lies

So toss me out and turn in

And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes

I'm marking it down to learning

I'm marking it down to learning

'Cause I am

Dysthymia

Depression


Depression is a strong feeling of sadness. Many people experience depression in response to a loss or sad event. In these cases, an episode of depression usually lasts for six to nine months. However, when depression lasts longer, and the depressive symptoms go away for a short time only to return again, it is termed chronic depression. While everyone experiences sadness at one time or another, these feelings are generally temporary. Chronic depression is long-lasting, interferes with daily activities, and causes a loss of interest in things that were normally pleasurable to the patient.


What causes it?


While depression is frequently a response to a sad or traumatic event, the cause of chronic depression is often not known. Factors that are known to contribute to depression are heredity, a chemical imbalance in the brain, and significant levels of stress. Heredity refers to the fact that people who have family members with any type of depressive disorder are more likely to also experience depression. Studies of brain functioning have revealed a complex system of neurotransmitters that produce chemicals that transfer signals from nerve cell to nerve cell. Some of these neurotransmitters, such as serotonin, are responsible for feelings of well-being. Drugs that correct neurotransmitter imbalances are very effective in treating depression, which supports the theory that there is some type of chemical imbalance that triggers depression. Chronic depression can occur when stresses in a person's environment become overwhelming, such as years of childhood abuse and neglect. It can also be caused by chronic illness, such as AIDS, Parkinson's disease, chronic fatigue syndrome, certain chronic cardiac conditions, and hormonal disorders.


What are the symptoms?


The symptoms of chronic depression may come and go, with periods of depression alternating with periods of no symptoms at all. Chronic depression usually begins gradually, with vague feelings of sadness that gradually build in intensity. The individual may begin to have difficulty sleeping, or want to sleep more than usual. He or she may experience changes in eating habits, feelings of hopelessness, low self-esteem, low energy levels, restlessness, loss of interest in normal activities, decreased sex drive, feelings of guilt for no reason, difficulty maintaining relationships, and difficulty concentrating. In severe cases, the individual may have thoughts of death, or may attempt suicide. People with chronic depression have at least two of these symptoms for a period of two years or more. People with chronic depression are generally gloomy and extremely critical of themselves and others. They are usually seen as extremely negative people, who seem to expect failure and take no pleasure in anything.



***thanks to a to z topics

parting time...

as of now i am smothered by the thought of things comming and leaving to your life...
B*&%S@^*&!!!


and seems that people around is not responding.

...

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

WANTED: Hero

Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back
Would you cry if you saw me crying
Would you save my soul tonight?

Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh oh please tell me these
Now would you die for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight?

Would you swear that you'll always be mine?
Would you lie would you run away
Am I in to deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care you're here tonight

:::laughs:::

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i will love in you in a pouring rain....

in the office... but no work. as usual hanging out with my friends here at the night shift. My life in the morning is really gloomy. and trying to conceal the sad feeling.

I am thinking right now on how can I stay with my house when my room mate is planning to relocate at kamuning. I want to stay but there's no fund to deposit and advance the rent of the room. Just when I am starting to have plans in that place...

and another thing. I feel lonely... my reason for everyday seems not enough to wake me up in the morning.

u know i need you, u know i love you, you know i care, i know u love me, i know you need me, i know u care... but what do we mean to each other?

wherever you are....

I LOVE TO SEE THE OCEAN’S BEAUTY

AND THE MOON THAT SHINES ABOVE

ALONE IN THE SAND LOOKING AT THE STARS

WISHING SOMEDAY I WOULD FIND TRUE LOVE

WOULD IT BE NICE TO SEE THE MORNING

WITH THE ONE YOU LOVE THE MOST

WOULD IT BE NICE TO SAY GOODNIGHT

TO THE ONE YOU HOLD SO CLOSE TO YOUR HEART

***

THE WIND THAT BLOWS THE DOVE

IS THE WIND THAT BLOWS MY LOVE

HOPE IT’LL FIND ITS WAY TO YOU

WHEREVER YOU ARE.

***

I LOVE TO SIT IN FIELDS OF GREEN

LOOKING DEEPLY THROUGH THE SKY

WATCHING BIRDS AS THEY FLY BY

HOPING SOMEDAY FATE WILL BRING ME TRUE LOVE.

WOULD IT BE NICE TO HOLD SOMEONE

SO DEAR, NEAR YOUR HEART

WOULD IT BE NICE TO HEAR THOSE WORDS

I LOVE YOU FROM THE ONE THAT YOU LOVE

***

I’D LOVE TO SEE MYSELF ONE DAY

IN THE ARMS OF SOMEONE

WHO WILL SHARE HIS LIFE WITH ME

SELFLESSLY…SOMEDAY…

YOU WILL FIND YOUR WAY…TO ME…

sanctuary*

*safe small place in a troubled world






i think im lost and i badly need guidance...

eRASeRHeADS {anthology}

Disk 1

Ligaya
Pare Ko
Toya
Minsan
Overdrive
Kailan
Sembreak
And Huling El Bimbo
Alapaap
With a Smile
Magasin
Superproxy
Torpedo
Huwag Mo Nang Itanong
Kamasupra




Disk 2

Kaliwete
Hard To Believe
Para sa Masa
Bogchi Hokbu
Maselang Bahaghari
Pop Machine
Huwag Kang Matakot
Maskara
Hula
Julie Tear Jerky
Fruitcake
Trip to Jerusalem
Tuwing Umuulan At Kapiling Ka
Run Barbie Run
Police WOman
Tamagochi Baby
Harana
Sa Tollgate

New Book

Yesterday, as I am walking in the mall I saw a stall where they sell children's books. A pink book caught my attention and i approached the stall and took the book. It is tittled "Girls Rule". Its an interesting book so even im broke i still managed to get it. [honestly i considered getting it without paying for it... so bad!] I will post some of its quotes and very inspiring text when I have the time. Its just the basics for it is a children book, but mostly the basics is what we missed thats why we have short commings in life.

*i feel as if that i am not given a chance to read this book during my childhood thats why im like this. [cant even establish an eye to eye contact with a stranger] This is my time to cope up and catch up with my being....

REALITY: We are busy looking at the big picture that we never see the important little details in it.

legacy of hayden...

something to add up my (and your) vocabolary.

frugal [ cheap]
proclivity [natural likeness]
throng english [nag dagsaan]
retrospect [1. contemplation of things from the past 2. survey]
accolade [honor]
venerable [honorable]
imbecile [crazy; perverse] [wala sa hulog]
conspicuos [obvious]
impecable [perfect]
peril;menace [dangerous]







....hmmm still drowned by loneliness.